C.o.S.y.C

I officially feel like death is calling my name. This “flu” is kicking my ass and getting worse by the day. I am taking multivitamins, airborne, Tylenol cold : severe symptom, and lots of water. Every day it gets worse and I get a new symptom of some sort. Today I wake up with a headache from hell, my chest is all messed up, my throat hurts, I have nasal congestion, and every time  I cough I feel like my head is going to explode. I haven’t felt this bad in years. I hope this gets better before it gets worse but I know that is probably not going to happen. I don’t have the means to go to a doctor so I just might have to tough it out. I am actually scared of the N1H1 Virus. I have been since the first outbreak a few months ago. I have done every thing I can to prevent this from happening but it still came around. I am more afraid for my children than I am for myself. Honestly, I don’t even know if this is indeed the Swine Flu. However, the doctor said that this is the only strain that could be going around because the other hasn’t been “released” yet. I think this is some kind of government virus. I think they all are in most cases. How do we actually have to power to know when something is going to come out such as a virus. Come on! There has to be some kind of connection. I believe it has to do with population control. Whatever. I just want this to go away so that I can move on with my life. This sucks. I really hope that my wife doesn’t get it. We can NOT afford for her to get sick. My jaw hurts too. That is what started first. I thought that I had lock-jaw. It has been two weeks and it still hurts. THen I got this crap and now it is getting worse. I think that it is time for me to go to the hospital when Nina gets back from her class. We’ll see. Wish me luck!