C.o.S.y.C

It has been a little bit since my last entry and I am making some changes for the better in my all around life. Over the weekend the family and I went to the YMCA for the first time and went swimming. Everyone had fun, which is unusual. Most times we go out someone ends up crying or screaming and so on. Not this time though, it was really nice. Nina and I are starting to make some progress. I am practicing some new techniques and recommendations from a blog called “What She Needs From You”, that have been really making a difference. I am learning more about my wife and relationship just be following simple steps. So that is improving things around here. My unemployment is finally in the works since work is out of the question. My claim is going forward ans hopefully things will work out. I hate struggling. My family and I have been through way too much in the past year and can’t take many more hits.

I am currently listening to Country music for two reasons. I am trying to win Sugarland tickets for my wife and it calms me down. For some reason it is soothing in a way. Not full of hate like I usually listen to and not that crap rap that talks about sex, drugs and other bullshit. Speaking of which, KANYE WEST HATES WHITE PEOPLE! What he did to Taylor Swift at the 2009 MTV Video Music Awards was wrong and uncalled for. I hope you get what is coming to you. Time to grow up Kanye, can’t make an ass out of yourself and treat people badly when you want attention. Should have spent more time with your dead mommy!! Had to get that out, it was eating at me for days…

So I am trying to make better, more positive choices in the next couple of weeks and see what kind of results I get. I am going to stop drinking again for a while because I feel that it is getting out of hand. I have been doing well but I feel myself losing control and that I don’t want. I have been able to stay away from pot for over 3 months now and haven’t replaced it with alcohol like the last time. Stress has been more intense lately and I want to remain in control.

Your life is in your hands, choose wisely!