C.o.S.y.C

It is 2:25am and how crazy is it that I am writing in this journal at the beginning of the month about my son. Who at the moment is content just walking around playing with a booklight that I got with the “snuggie” I bought my wife recently. Earlier he woke me up crying this awful cry and then when I tried to comfort him just continued. Finally mom got up, bless her, and he calmed down. I guess every male does need his mother. It was almost like he wanted nothing to do with me which is not like him. ( now he is eating his animal cracker and cooing and doing the baby thing   ) After four kids I still don’t fully understand them. Each child is definitely their own being and NO two are alike. Micah is a great baby 99% of the time. Doesn’t ask for much, rarely cries, loves to get into everything, and always and I do mean ALWAYS, has a smile on his face. At 11 months he is now walking and has a total of six teeth, that we can see. He is a beautiful child, and like his sisters and brother, has a bright future ahead of him. We are blessed, (knock on wood ) that none of our children have had any mental or physical setbacks. They are truly a miracle.

On anther note, I have wicked heartburn and a slight headache from the alcohol and Mc Donald’s I consumed before I went to bed. The headaches are an ongoing problem that are becoming a little too frequent for my liking. The heart burn is something that I am sure that I got from my mom because she had a bad acid reflux problem. They both seem to happen more when I drink I  know the only solution. As of today October 1st, 2009 I am taking a vow of sobriety. I have kicked smokes, and pot and I know that I can successfully let go of this demon for good as well. I don’t have it around me all the time, meaning that the wife is a social drinker. With the constant changes in my body the morning after having a few drinks, this is a change I am ready to make. My mom did it for over 20 years, I am sure I can do it for the rest of my life. I have a good support system and I know that I can do this. I believe more now than I have before that I have the willpower to do this. I will give updates on my progress and I am sure that I will be using my journal as another way to continue my road to success.  Damn, my head hurts. Now having said that, Micah is in bed, I am tired, a few things to do here online, then off to bed. Good night.